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If something happens you should try to give yourself hope and try not to think much about it. Just try to make your mind accept it, altough it can be hard as hell. Once you succeed at doing it you feel that it's not a problem anymore and almost nothing to worry about, sad thing is that the hope never lasts for too long. Anyways it's worth to try being hard on yourself mentally, for the time you think you'll need it. (Can't depend on it for your whole life though)



ps. this is not a fact, just my mind

Meaning

If not everything has a meaning, you might be right. But sometimes i just think very complicated about things, it has good consequenses and also bad ones. I sometimes make myself think i understand more about things, and also i can calm myself in hard times. Also several songs with some amazingly good lyrics help me. Yet sometimes i can believe things that are not so good, and i know that they might be not true. Ususaly it are these little things, that for the most people make no sense at all, that make me think through to bigger things and create false thoughts. Even if i'm sure that the things i think are not true, i still am kinda believing them. I think i am sometimes insicure about myself and the things i should or shouldnt do. I believe i also can create false thoughts becouse i'm confused and want to know the answers to things, so then i start to make my own endings to the story. And sometimes i just feel sad about nothing at all, the only thing i do know is that sometimes there is a clear reason, but i just cant figure out what it is. But most of the time i'm aware of a false thought, so i guess i'll be allright. I'm being vague as hell here, i know i am. Although i hope people understand that everyone has a special way of thinking, and i like mine :p I will never think the easy way i guess. (btw, everything i say might be not the way i mean it due to my lack of knowing english, or just that i forgot how to explain the real thing (: so yeah..)

There we go

Hi, this is my first blog message. Not even sure why I'm doing this, I think I'd like to just write things down sometimes. I hope I'll enjoy this and also hope you do, in some way. As soon as something comes up in my head that I don't talk about in real life, I'll try to write it down here and hope it will help :P geeezz.. dunno what to say now. I'll just write down something as soon as I have some inspiration left, right now the inspiration level is 0. If people actually read this, sorry for my English from time to time, and I usually don't write with capital lettres so i'll quit it from now :3